myopic pilgrim

I was thinking about how being married with kids limits your freedom and increases your responsibility. It’s clear to me that Paul the Apostle’s encouragement to not marry was to keep you nimble and single-minded. If it were just me, I could deprive—even abuse myself, but I must provide and protect my family. And not only that, but I have to look after myself for the sake of my family. I’m no good to them burnt out, weakened, or dead.

I realize I didn’t develop this thought very well. I just needed to get this exhortation down for me before I forgot. Part of my value is measured by how physically, spiritually, and emotionally able I am to care for my family. The damage I do to myself (actively or through inaction) does damage to my family.

Today my son and I watched a bit of the tragic opera, Madama Butterfly. He watched the screen attentively. After about fifteen minutes of that, we watched Elmo tap dance.

I’m a little behind. I know.

I was going over “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” in my head last week. Just saying it again and again and it became increasingly dramatic. I might have moved into melodrama on this spoken word piece, but here it is. I hope it’s helpful.

a link to Why God mp3. You can download this for yourself by right-clicking the link and saving it to your computer.